Her latest project is in honor of October which is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. It's called Capture Your Grief: 31 Days, 31 Photographs.
Basically, the idea is that each day, for the entire month of October, you take a photograph that is your own personal interpretation of some pre-chosen subjects. Some of the subjects are: A Special Place, Before Loss, After Loss, Memorial, Jewellery, etc. There are 31 subjects. Carly Marie has invited those who want to participate to post their pictures on her facebook page as well as share them on your own blog, facebook page, etc...
The point of it all, is to help process your grief and to begin to heal. It is also to raise awareness that there are many families out there who are missing a child whose life was too brief. Baby loss is a very difficult subject for some. Many people out there will not even acknowledge that a deceased baby ever existed no matter what gestation they passed at. There are those that believe that a baby was never alive unless he/she took a breath. They don't know what to say and are scared of saying the wrong thing. So they say nothing, which is sometimes the worst.
So, I really like this new project of hers. I decided I will participate the best I can and post my pictures here. I didn't realize, but there are apparently other moms who have lost babies who read my blog. So this is party for them, as well as for me!
Thankfully, Carly Marie has assured us that if you miss a day or cannot complete a day for whatever reason that IT'S OKAY!
Whew! Cause today was the first day and the subject was: Sunrise. We were supposed to have "greeted the day" by setting our alarms and taking a photo of the sun rising.
Now, I really have no reason to have failed at this, because I am the proud owner of two really loud hungry alarm clocks. I most definitely was up at sunrise, but was too groggy and cranky to bother taking any pictures, not that I even remembered I was supposed to in the first place!
So, next is Day 2: Before Loss. It's supposed to be a picture of yourself before you lost your baby.
Here is Mine (I'm doing it early, since I missed the first one!)
Day 2 Capture Your Grief: Before Loss Self Portrait
I picked this one, because I do believe it is the last picture I have of myself pregnant before we found out Ben had died. It was taken on Halloween. Halloween is also one of my last good memories before the sh*t hit the fan so to speak. We had an amazing night taking Rylen trick or treating, we were super excited and happy to have three healthy babies growing away in me, we were over our initial shock and were prepared to welcome all three babes, I was feeling pretty good (despite a perpetual "waddle" when I walked) and thankful that I wasn't having any pregnancy complications. Life was perfect.
Life still is excellent. But it's different. Not matter how happy the day is, or how great of a moment we are having, my next thought is "but...I wish Ben was here". I suppose maybe that will fade a bit with time. Just not yet. But that's okay. I like thinking of him often.
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